Well do I remember that first winter after I left home. I have long dreams of
sitting shivering in the cold. Lop-Ear and I sit close together, with our arms
and legs about each other, blue-faced and with chattering teeth. It got
particularly crisp along toward morning. In those chill early hours we slept
little, huddling together in numb misery and waiting for the sunrise in order
to get warm.
When we went outside there was a crackle of frost under foot. One morning we
discovered ice on the surface of the quiet water in the eddy where was the
drinking-place, and there was a great How-do-you-do about it. Old Marrow-Bone
was the oldest member of the horde, and he had never seen anything like it
before. I remember the worried, plaintive look that came into his eyes as he
examined the ice. (This plaintive look always came into our eyes when we did
not understand a thing, or when we felt the prod of some vague and
inexpressible desire.) Red-Eye, too, when he investigated the ice, looked bleak
and plaintive, and stared across the river into the northeast, as though in
some way he connected the Fire People with this latest happening.
But we found ice only on that one morning, and that was the coldest winter we
experienced. I have no memory of other winters when it was so cold. I have
often thought that that cold winter was a fore-runner of the countless cold
winters to come, as the ice-sheet from farther north crept down over the face
of the land. But we never saw that ice-sheet. Many generations must have passed
away before the descendants of the horde migrated south, or remained and
adapted themselves to the changed conditions.
Life was hit or miss and happy-go-lucky with us. Little was ever planned, and
less was executed. We ate when we were hungry, drank when we were thirsty,
avoided our carnivorous enemies, took shelter in the caves at night, and for
the rest just sort of played along through life.
We were very curious, easily amused, and full of tricks and pranks. There was
no seriousness about us, except when we were in danger or were angry, in which
cases the one was quickly forgotten and the other as quickly got over.
We were inconsecutive, illogical, and inconsequential. We had no steadfastness
of purpose, and it was here that the Fire People were ahead of us. They
possessed all these things of which we possessed so little. Occasionally,
however, especially in the realm of the emotions, we were capable of
long-cherished purpose. The faithfulness of the monogamic couples I have
referred to may be explained as a matter of habit; but my long desire for the
Swift One cannot be so explained, any more than can be explained the undying
enmity between me and Red-Eye.
But it was our inconsequentiality and stupidity that especially distresses me
when I look back upon that life in the long ago. Once I found a broken gourd
which happened to lie right side up and which had been filled with the rain.
The water was sweet, and I drank it. I even took the gourd down to the stream
and filled it with more water, some of which I drank and some of which I poured
over Lop-Ear. And then I threw the gourd away. It never entered my head to fill
the gourd with water and carry it into my cave. Yet often I was thirsty at
night, especially after eating wild onions and watercress, and no one ever
dared leave the caves at night for a drink.
Another time I found a dry gourd, inside of which the seeds rattled. I had fun
with it for a while. But it was a plaything, nothing more. And yet, it was not
long after this that the using of gourds for storing water became the general
practice of the horde. But I was not the inventor. The honor was due to old
Marrow-Bone, and it is fair to assume that it was the necessity of his great
age that brought about the innovation.
At any rate, the first member of the horde to use gourds was Marrow-Bone. He
kept a supply of drinking-water in his cave, which cave belonged to his son,
the Hairless One, who permitted him to occupy a corner of it. We used to see
Marrow-Bone filling his gourd at the drinking-place and carrying it carefully
up to his cave. Imitation was strong in the Folk, and first one, and then
another and another, procured a gourd and used it in similar fashion, until it
was a general practice with all of us so to store water.
Sometimes old Marrow-Bone had sick spells and was unable to leave the cave.
Then it was that the Hairless One filled the gourd for him. A little later, the
Hairless One deputed the task to Long-Lip, his son. And after that, even when
Marrow-Bone was well again, Long-Lip continued carrying water for him. By and
by, except on unusual occasions, the men never carried any water at all,
leaving the task to the women and larger children. Lop-Ear and I were
independent. We carried water only for ourselves, and we often mocked the young
water-carriers when they were called away from play to fill the gourds.
Progress was slow with us. We played through life, even the adults, much in the
same way that children play, and we played as none of the other animals played.
What little we learned, was usually in the course of play, and was due to our
curiosity and keenness of appreciation. For that matter, the one big invention
of the horde, during the time I lived with it, was the use of gourds. At first
we stored only water in the gourds—in imitation of old Marrow-Bone.
But one day some one of the women—I do not know which one—filled a
gourd with black-berries and carried it to her cave. In no time all the women
were carrying berries and nuts and roots in the gourds. The idea, once started,
had to go on. Another evolution of the carrying-receptacle was due to the
women. Without doubt, some woman’s gourd was too small, or else she had
forgotten her gourd; but be that as it may, she bent two great leaves together,
pinning the seams with twigs, and carried home a bigger quantity of berries
than could have been contained in the largest gourd.
So far we got, and no farther, in the transportation of supplies during the
years I lived with the Folk. It never entered anybody’s head to weave a
basket out of willow-withes. Sometimes the men and women tied tough vines about
the bundles of ferns and branches that they carried to the caves to sleep upon.
Possibly in ten or twenty generations we might have worked up to the weaving of
baskets. And of this, one thing is sure: if once we wove withes into baskets,
the next and inevitable step would have been the weaving of cloth. Clothes
would have followed, and with covering our nakedness would have come modesty.
Thus was momentum gained in the Younger World. But we were without this
momentum. We were just getting started, and we could not go far in a single
generation. We were without weapons, without fire, and in the raw beginnings of
speech. The device of writing lay so far in the future that I am appalled when
I think of it.
Even I was once on the verge of a great discovery. To show you how fortuitous
was development in those days let me state that had it not been for the
gluttony of Lop-Ear I might have brought about the domestication of the dog.
And this was something that the Fire People who lived to the northeast had not
yet achieved. They were without dogs; this I knew from observation. But let me
tell you how Lop-Ear’s gluttony possibly set back our social development
many generations.
Well to the west of our caves was a great swamp, but to the south lay a stretch
of low, rocky hills. These were little frequented for two reasons. First of
all, there was no food there of the kind we ate; and next, those rocky hills
were filled with the lairs of carnivorous beasts.
But Lop-Ear and I strayed over to the hills one day. We would not have strayed
had we not been teasing a tiger. Please do not laugh. It was old Saber-Tooth
himself. We were perfectly safe. We chanced upon him in the forest, early in
the morning, and from the safety of the branches overhead we chattered down at
him our dislike and hatred. And from branch to branch, and from tree to tree,
we followed overhead, making an infernal row and warning all the
forest-dwellers that old Saber-Tooth was coming.
We spoiled his hunting for him, anyway. And we made him good and angry. He
snarled at us and lashed his tail, and sometimes he paused and stared up at us
quietly for a long time, as if debating in his mind some way by which he could
get hold of us. But we only laughed and pelted him with twigs and the ends of
branches.
This tiger-baiting was common sport among the folk. Sometimes half the horde
would follow from overhead a tiger or lion that had ventured out in the
daytime. It was our revenge; for more than one member of the horde, caught
unexpectedly, had gone the way of the tiger’s belly or the lion’s.
Also, by such ordeals of helplessness and shame, we taught the hunting animals
to some extent to keep out of our territory. And then it was funny. It was a
great game.
And so Lop-Ear and I had chased Saber-Tooth across three miles of forest.
Toward the last he put his tail between his legs and fled from our gibing like
a beaten cur. We did our best to keep up with him; but when we reached the edge
of the forest he was no more than a streak in the distance.
I don’t know what prompted us, unless it was curiosity; but after playing
around awhile, Lop-Ear and I ventured across the open ground to the edge of the
rocky hills. We did not go far. Possibly at no time were we more than a hundred
yards from the trees. Coming around a sharp corner of rock (we went very
carefully, because we did not know what we might encounter), we came upon three
puppies playing in the sun.
They did not see us, and we watched them for some time. They were wild dogs. In
the rock-wall was a horizontal fissure—evidently the lair where their
mother had left them, and where they should have remained had they been
obedient. But the growing life, that in Lop-Ear and me had impelled us to
venture away from the forest, had driven the puppies out of the cave to frolic.
I know how their mother would have punished them had she caught them.
But it was Lop-Ear and I who caught them. He looked at me, and then we made a
dash for it. The puppies knew no place to run except into the lair, and we
headed them off. One rushed between my legs. I squatted and grabbed him. He
sank his sharp little teeth into my arm, and I dropped him in the suddenness of
the hurt and surprise. The next moment he had scurried inside.
Lop-Ear, struggling with the second puppy, scowled at me and intimated by a
variety of sounds the different kinds of a fool and a bungler that I was. This
made me ashamed and spurred me to valor. I grabbed the remaining puppy by the
tail. He got his teeth into me once, and then I got him by the nape of the
neck. Lop-Ear and I sat down, and held the puppies up, and looked at them, and
laughed.
They were snarling and yelping and crying. Lop-Ear started suddenly. He thought
he had heard something. We looked at each other in fear, realizing the danger
of our position. The one thing that made animals raging demons was tampering
with their young. And these puppies that made such a racket belonged to the
wild dogs. Well we knew them, running in packs, the terror of the grass-eating
animals. We had watched them following the herds of cattle and bison and
dragging down the calves, the aged, and the sick. We had been chased by them
ourselves, more than once. I had seen one of the Folk, a woman, run down by
them and caught just as she reached the shelter of the woods. Had she not been
tired out by the run, she might have made it into a tree. She tried, and
slipped, and fell back. They made short work of her.
We did not stare at each other longer than a moment. Keeping tight hold of our
prizes, we ran for the woods. Once in the security of a tall tree, we held up
the puppies and laughed again. You see, we had to have our laugh out, no matter
what happened.
And then began one of the hardest tasks I ever attempted. We started to carry
the puppies to our cave. Instead of using our hands for climbing, most of the
time they were occupied with holding our squirming captives. Once we tried to
walk on the ground, but were treed by a miserable hyena, who followed along
underneath. He was a wise hyena.
Lop-Ear got an idea. He remembered how we tied up bundles of leaves to carry
home for beds. Breaking off some tough vines, he tied his puppy’s legs
together, and then, with another piece of vine passed around his neck, slung
the puppy on his back. This left him with hands and feet free to climb. He was
jubilant, and did not wait for me to finish tying my puppy’s legs, but
started on. There was one difficulty, however. The puppy wouldn’t stay
slung on Lop-Ear’s back. It swung around to the side and then on in
front. Its teeth were not tied, and the next thing it did was to sink its teeth
into Lop-Ear’s soft and unprotected stomach. He let out a scream, nearly
fell, and clutched a branch violently with both hands to save himself. The vine
around his neck broke, and the puppy, its four legs still tied, dropped to the
ground. The hyena proceeded to dine.
Lop-Ear was disgusted and angry. He abused the hyena, and then went off alone
through the trees. I had no reason that I knew for wanting to carry the puppy
to the cave, except that I wanted to; and I stayed by my task. I made
the work a great deal easier by elaborating on Lop-Ear’s idea. Not only
did I tie the puppy’s legs, but I thrust a stick through his jaws and
tied them together securely.
At last I got the puppy home. I imagine I had more pertinacity than the average
Folk, or else I should not have succeeded. They laughed at me when they saw me
lugging the puppy up to my high little cave, but I did not mind. Success
crowned my efforts, and there was the puppy. He was a plaything such as none of
the Folk possessed. He learned rapidly. When I played with him and he bit me, I
boxed his ears, and then he did not try again to bite for a long time.
I was quite taken up with him. He was something new, and it was a
characteristic of the Folk to like new things. When I saw that he refused
fruits and vegetables, I caught birds for him and squirrels and young rabbits.
(We Folk were meat-eaters, as well as vegetarians, and we were adept at
catching small game.) The puppy ate the meat and thrived. As well as I can
estimate, I must have had him over a week. And then, coming back to the cave
one day with a nestful of young-hatched pheasants, I found Lop-Ear had killed
the puppy and was just beginning to eat him. I sprang for Lop-Ear,—the
cave was small,—and we went at it tooth and nail.
And thus, in a fight, ended one of the earliest attempts to domesticate the
dog. We pulled hair out in handfuls, and scratched and bit and gouged. Then we
sulked and made up. After that we ate the puppy. Raw? Yes. We had not yet
discovered fire. Our evolution into cooking animals lay in the tight-rolled
scroll of the future.